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My Special Needs

 

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My Special Needs

By Lisa Kerr

 

Dear all readers,

My name is Lisa Kerr and I have Special Needs!  I often get angry as I sometimes can’t explain things even though I know what I mean and I get really upset I am also quiet slow at doing some things especially when it come to time and money! I’m not ashamed to say that I can’t count money although I wish I could! I grew up living with Foster Parents and I only see my Mum once a week and about a year ago I started seeing this guy that I absouletly adore but I wasn’t allowed to see him and I started to not go outside as he was the only person I have ever loved the way I do! I’m 16 years old and I’m not gonna say what age he is! His name is Luke Egan and he went to my school! We really liked each other and when we where told we couldn’t go out with each other, I bet you can imagine what I was like! Anyway my whole life was basically ruined and I felt that my life wasn’t worth living so I started to try and kill myself  but shhhhhh nobody knows! I did it because I felt that if they thought it was alright to ruin my relationship with the one person I have ever loved and I’ve been with a few guys and haven’t felt the same way as I feel for him! I hardly talk to any

one and I just feel like I don’t want to be alive if I know he still loves me and we can’t be together then what is the point? So then I realised when I’m 18 I can do whatever I want so I am going to move in and live with him and that is only next year because I’m 17 in the 9th of July! I can’t wait! I am quite smart! I know what there thinking! “It’s just a phase I’m going through!” I DON’T THINK SO! I don’t think my real mum is to happy about it either, but it’s not what they think they know it’s what they don’t know and how it affect me and how I feel about him and I’m not just going to let people think that they are going to control me! WHATS IT  GOING TO BE NEXT? YOUR NOT ALLOWED TO BE HUMAN? THEY CAN FORGET ABOUT IT! I feel that I can hardly be a teenager never mined be a human they must think I have so kind of disease or something or you must think I’m stupid! Guess what? I’m so sorry to disappoint everyone that does think I am stupid! Technically I am but technically I am not. Everyone is intitaled to there own opinion but I feel that some people in my present life has there opinion on me but I can’t say how I feel about anything or have my opinion on how my life is! The things I would change if I could would be allowed to go out of my estate, allowed to see Luke when I want, allowed to have a mobile, allowed to go to Discos, because I know that when I’m 18 and I have nothing to do, and if I get bored and want to do something the first thing that others would think of is go down town shopping etc. but me I’ll be afraid to go anywhere on my own because I don’t have the freedom and the confidence as a teenager to do it, so I’d probably try and think of something else unless someone comes down the town with me! That’s how afraid I know I’m going to be! Anyway  I go to a Special School, called St. Bernadette’s School, it used to be called St. Bernadette’s Special School, but they took Special out.  Me having Special Needs affects me a lot even if people don’t know that I have Special Needs because I still know that I do and they are going to ask me if there is something wrong with me and I don’t mind that! I didn’t even know I had Special Needs until about 2004! That’s the exact year I left primary school! I don’t see why I can’t do the Junior cert! I love to Study the very first year I started I was always doing work! And on a Saturday and Sunday I would do the homework I would have for Monday nights homework and my teacher would be really pleased! But I didn’t do it to please her I did it for myself because I don’t want to be growing up with very bad qualifications when I know I can do more and I push myself and I do Junior Cert books  because the books they have I have either done them or they are too easy for me as I am really good at English and every other subject except maths but that shouldn’t stop me from going to a normal school! Should it? Anyway I have no choice! I have always wanted to do the Junior Cert and I know I’m well able to it and I know if I study everyday I’ll pass for sure because I know I’m not stupid and I know that I will be stupid If I stay in that school and when I leave that school they’ll put me in a training centre even though I want to go to college but now I can’t because I don’t have my junior cert or leaving cert even though my teacher says that fetac exam is the equivalent to Junior Cert! I KNOW IT ISN’T!!!!!!!! In that school your not allowed to do Irish but I do it anyway I think it’s terrible that it is our native language and just because of some stupid policy about doing other languages where not allowed to do it! It’s not another language because it’s meant to be our native language and if we are supposed to be Irish and if you can speak Irish or you want to learn Irish you should be allowed! So in class I try to speak Irish well it’s to the teachers because most of the students in that school didn’t go to another school so they don’t know any Irish which is a sin! I think!

 

                              Why people that don’t have a disability take things for granted

People who don’t have a disability usually take things for granted. They should wake up every morning and thank God that they can walk, talk properly can get a proper education, get a proper job. Do things that some people can’t but some people don’t they don’t care too much or even think about helping people to reach there full potential and achieve something they have always want to achieve and then they start to make them feel bad about themselves by calling them things that they shouldn’t, by making fun of them, Bullying them etc. which has become a big thing of the 21st Century. I think it’s extremely cruel to make fun of someone who has a disability whether it be a physical, mental, memory, hyperactive disorder, speech disorder, Down Syndrome etc. I think that those people that do that don’t know anything about having special needs and they just think that because they don’t that they can make fun and or bully people that have special needs. And you know they say? Mocking is catching! And just because you may not look like you have special needs and you don’t feel like you have special needs does

Not completely mean you don’t, because I didn’t even know till I was in 6th class in primary school that I had special needs even though I was going to remedial classes since I was in first I was about 7 when I first went to a remedial class. After that when I made my confirmation I was about 13/14 I went to a special school called St. Bernadette’s School. Which used to be called St. Bernadette’s Special school but Special was taking out and I was happy that it was because people would be looking and saying do they have special needs, and some people may just make fun of us! I’m not bothered but there is some people who call me it and then I ask them do they know what it means and they always say yes and I ask them and they don’t have a clue what it means! Some people say sorry and they won’t call me it again but sometimes it’s different they’d call me it again and laugh! So much for I won’t call you it again!

 

 

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